The Outsider-Insider
I think it is inevitable that I often delve into this ‘insider’ and ‘outsider’, or ‘local’ and ‘foreigner’ topic since I’m living in Amsterdam right now. However, it was only recent that I have accepted that I am a moving body and I have un/subconsciously ‘performed’ this displacement over the last years residing in Singapore.
I was hit hard with this confrontation while in Bandung with the DAI last October. Later on, I wrote an essay titled, #ILEFTMYPDFSOMEWHEREBETWEENSINGAPOREANDINDONESIA: Locating Geopolitical Identity Displacement and the Act of Locating, uncovering my own doings and trying to understand my position from this displacement. Moreover, this oxymoronic title illustrates the missing point pretty darn well; as arts and cultural producer, our work is still very much location-bounded — despite the supposed convenience brought by technology — and this only means that time and space will be redefined over and over again.
But let’s put the ‘art’ aside and talk about how do or should people deal with this transition of time, space and place? Its easy to put a finger on globalization after many places have/had benefitted from this system and these places have since gave rise to forms of ‘localism’ — with some being extremely right-winged and many becoming to be as such. “Our” political system and society is not ready to take on the transnational (cultural) identity that globalization have brought us to. The idea of the nationstate is built based on the fact that it is a body that can keep and protect its people within a border and therefore to ensure the existence and ‘conceptual notion of survival’ of a particular group of people. This modernist project have now of course expanded to be something with a ‘darker side’ and this ‘darker side’ is ensuring the ‘basic needs of survival’.
I was thinking about these issues while having a conversation with a friend/artist-colleague from Singapore about how she only feels happy when she’s away from Singapore. I told her that that feeling or conception is a total misconception because you can also feel unhappy elsewhere. One fact also remains for her, she has never lived anywhere else other than Singapore. If returning to Japan a few times a year and can renew your ‘happiness’, then you can keep doing that and retain your ‘unhappiness’ in Singapore. While I’m not saying that if she’d live in Japan, she’d also feel the ‘unhappiness’, I’m simply saying that we humans constantly pick out good and bad things from the places we live anyway but whether we ultimately can like and choose to live at a place depends very much on our own psychological navigation of a place. Or, it can be deduced to how we choose to psychologically deal with a physical space considering the dynamics and patterns of the city, interaction (both human and spatial) and these factors often changes the personal, psychological and emotional perception drastically.
Truth is, it will always be hard for Singaporeans to live anywhere else (I’d love to elaborate on this at some point because this is altogether another topic itself, dealing with governance and management).
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Here I copied part of our conversation:
Me: How do you think in Singapore, we consider a ‘foreigner’ a local?
Friend: When they get a PR (Permanent Resident status) or our citizenship.
Me: Ya but that is state/modern-nationhood rhetorics. I meant on a ground level.
Friend: When they can speak our language?
Me: I bet that there are tons of people who has our citizenship but still retained their culture. Should we allow that? We should, right? Considering that we’re a nation that empathize and ‘tolerate’ such (cultural and religious) differences.
Language (if referring to Singlish) is a very complex tool that Singapore uses but it is also the thing that creates that division of this ‘local’ ‘non-local’ phenomenon. Is Singlish (colloquial Singapore English) our language?
Friend: No la. Not like this — perhaps it’s like we can behave and speak the way that we feel comfortable to one another? I don’t know how should I put it.
Me: Singapore is ‘doing great’ in terms of cultural ’tolerance’ and in fact better than any country on this planet but not transparent enough I think. (I have the impression Canada isn’t too bad given their liberal views on immigration but I haven’t been there or know that much to say).
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I think I need to read more otherwise I keep getting these ‘thought blocks’ that’s not helping with my writing. Although rfaoh is really giving me a great reason and space to write and read more.
I decided to also post an extremely rfaoh-appropriate photo of what I did yesterday. I composed most parts of this post the day before, read a bit of Walter Mignolo, drinking, then finally playing Civilization V and drafting a logo for my handmade leather goods business on etsy.
Here’s a link to the store: wayfarerworkshop.etsy.com
And follow us on Instagram?
I’m gonna give everyone here the ‘better’ discount code [FRIENDZONE] — 25% off, so show some love if you can? I’m still going through the rebranding phase at the moment and I need help with the logo, and also language translation from English to any of these languages; French, German, Italian, Japanese, Dutch. I’m doing this to support myself because as I mentioned before I’m running low on funds and might have to withdraw myself from the DAI and return to Singapore before end of this year if money doesn’t come into my bank account magically (just kidding). Well, I want to simply avoid taking more loans, especially not from the banking institutions.
Ciao!
Wayne Lim wrote on Sep 26:
Hey Marisa,
That's my gut feeling as well; mankind has yet to evolutionize to that stage of being able to deal with the change of time and space in such a short period of time. Today, we are dealing with displacment, rootlessness, placelessness, detachment, etc., 'finding freedom in the lack of attachment' is definitely one of the plus.
It's two sides of the same coin, one can feel equally at home in a different time and space versus one who's not able to feel at home due to the different time and space.
Being about to see that freedom is great!
marisa dipaola wrote on Sep 26:
Hello Wayne, it's funny about being an outsider... You are a part of your new surroundings and also apart from your surroundings. I've always felt that way while flying: that my mind makes leaps it normally wouldn't, free in a way it normally isn't. My husband told me of a saying that your soul can only travel as fast as a camel, so when we travel by modern systems, our soul takes days (or weeks) to catch up to our bodies. I'm not sure where our minds are during this transition, but it seems that people who love traveling enjoy this disconnect, finding a freedom in the lack of attachment. (I know I appreciate the time to reflect on the changes more abstractly!)
co-director (s) wrote on Sep 14:
Here's something for you Wayne! Our ex-resident Kelly has just launched a new Contemporary Craft Programme she worked on as her on-hiatus project last year, as a department chair -- http://residencyforartistsonhiatus.org/uncategorized/congratulations-kelly-for-completing-your-on-hiatus-project/
I'm sure she might have lots to say about Etsy and "crafters" and your comment!!
Wayne Lim wrote on Sep 7:
I guess the definition or notion of "making art" or "art-making" has a really wide spectrum! But you got it, etsy sellers only look like artists — not artists — more like cheesy titles like; artisans, crafters, woodworkers, etc. Jeff Koons with his fame and popularity as an artist, selling his sculptures on etsy rejecting gallery representation would be a different story, isn't it? I'm still trying to find out the top 5 countries of etsy's sales.
co-director (s) wrote on Sep 7:
Jeez, are you not making art if for Etsy? Everyone looks like an artist on Etsy. (PS- I've also just read Etsy made 2.4 billion in merchandise sales in 2015)