So it begins…..Commencing…. AA Report – Day 18
Before I begin I must first admit that I’m still coming down from a high. That high that comes from producing and exhibiting a body of work- to clarify, I recently took down this work following my exhibitions close so I am not currently exhibiting anything anywhere. Most artists that I’ve talked to about this understand and can relate to this feeling and place that I’m now in; the comedown, that lull period / what would normally be the thinking and researching process before the making. However, I’m also moving forward into a phase that involves not making art (for 6 months) which I think is a little bit harder to relate to. I am both happy and content that I can rest and relax, watch films , read books that I ignored while I was making but I’m also realizing that what I want to accomplish involves a ton of work which has me feeling quite anxious. Lately I’ve been flicking my fingernails as I walk. This might be because they make a similar sound as my paintbrushes do when I flick the bristles; perhaps a nervous tick or a symptom of withdrawl?
Am I a workaholic? Am I an artaholic?
I will use this residency as a time for contemplation, as much as for action. Put in place a system for motion (but not devoid of emotion). Studies of self and a house. Setting aside time to ASK: Where are we, and where are we going? (in relation to my family and culture). Where am I and where am I going? What is now and what was before? (investigating history) What did the fire destroy and can I use this destruction to bring about positive changes towards something better, beyond what there was, and what had become. And DO, put a lot of elbow grease into it.
(So it begins…Commencing…A(rt) A(nonymous) Report-Day 18)
Photos: Me, & Trillium grandiflorum (white trillium, trille blanc) graceful spring flower