These last few weeks have brought huge changes to me professionally – the main thing is that the president of my college and its board of trustees decided to part ways after only eight months. It was a tumultous time when he arrived (our beloved former president – a painter – decided to retire, and then was diagnosed with cancer), and it became more difficult as the worlds of business and art collided. In the meantime, we lost two other staff members to cancer, and about twenty other people were either quit or were fired. I can’t describe the stress, but the impacts of the deaths were what made me rethink my entire life, personally and professionally. I was particularly close to a professor who died, and the loss continues to impact me.
I decided to apply for a new job – I got a couple of interviews at a great school in Portland OR, but didn’t make it to the final round. Ironically, I find my investment in administration, curriculum writing, and management will probably hurt me in this endeavor. My professional practice has suffered over the last three years as the college restructuring and then in the scramble to adjust to the new president and those expectations. I was really interested in jobs outside of academia – ones at art centers, artist in residency programs, etc. but I don’t know if I have the background for that.
When I didn’t get the final interview, I had to come to terms with that as well, and am rethinking everything in order to make myself happier. This involves a return to studio and a revaluation of priorities. A more balanced life – that will make me happier. I’m sure of that. Sort of.